Thursday, March 31, 2011

What's for lunch

When did making lunch become so difficult?  My son LOVES Kraft  Mac and cheese. The same Kraft that openly admits it’s using GMO foods. I’m not going into all the problems with that but please read more about it here (warning this might make you want to move to Europe)  . It is packed with salt, and the food coloring that has been shown to cause ADHD in children. Also Kraft is owned by Phillip Morris. The cigarette company that have killed untold amounts of people (and still counting) with there products while trying actively hook children on their drug. The whole thing is overwhelming. It has become very difficult to not eat GMO foods. Pretty much anything made from corn or soy.
When I go to clean up the mess my kids are sure to make I can’t use brawny paper towels because they are owned by the Koch brothers that are trying dismantle unions and promote there republican puppets to keep their firm grip on the neck of American workers and the worker’s money.
Just to get to the store to buy the products that are ruining this country I have to use gas. It’s dangerous to the environment. It has promoted war. It pumps my money out of my community and to some foreign country. Most likely one where they treat women like animals or slaves.
Maybe the Amish were on to something.
I’m just going to try to stay calm. Do what I can to protect my family. Do what I can to change it and make my kid's life a little healthier. Please pay attention to how your actions effect the big picture. Also if you have time start a garden and watch FOOD INC.
P.S.  will help you buy Non GMO Foods

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Started thinking of Old dogs and children and watermelon wine

The reality is you are going to die. 

And that’s ok 

Live life to the fullest

Make things happen

Love without fear

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Remember patients is a virtue 

You are the only one that can make you happy!

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He said, "Women think about themselves, when men-folk ain't around.

And friends are hard to find when they discover that you're down."
He said, "I tried it all when I was young and in my natural prime,
Now it's old dogs and children and watermelon wine."
"Old dogs care about you even when you make mistakes.
God bless little children while they're still to young to hate."
When he moved away I found my pen and copied down that line
About old dogs and children and watermelon wine.-Tom T Hall

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Our government hates us.

Why are they turning Texas into a gross dangerous dump? It’s bad enough we have sooo many chemical plants, oil refineries, and other dangerous and unhealthy producers here. We are now taking on other people’s dangerous material? When people think of Texas they might think long horns and boots. Maybe beautiful bluebonnets. Do we really want people to think of hairless, cancer patients and radiation poison victims? Much less do we want to be eating up with cancer and radiation poisoning? I sure as hell don’t want that for my kids! Then have to flip the bill for the clean up! This is insane our government hates us. I am blinded with rage. To read more about it here is a wonderful article.
and here

To hopefully help do something about it sign my petition! Please share! 

Sunday, March 27, 2011

The last time I went to church

I went because my husband wanted to. I do love him and who doesn’t love an uplifting sermon right? It was a very large church. They had a special guest so it was really crowded. We heard in. At the very front they had a LOT of tables of merchandise and a coffee bar. Different people selling christian jewelry. The guest’s books, cd’s, other things. I was shocked. In my head I was thinking WTF? Isn’t this the same thing Jesus got so mad about that he freaked out and started flipping over tables in church?
I shrugged it off bought a cookie and went in to find a seat.
After he talked a little while about how he was rooting for the saints to win he started to tell a long story. He started about how he used to be poor and ate mac n cheese a lot, but now he has money and everything is great. Then he started talking about his also wealthy neighbor has so much fun blowing all his cash and he enjoys looking at all the neat man toys he brings home. Then he told the story of the prodigal son. Except in his version the moral of that story is it was ok to blow all your money because It’s fun and Jesus will love you anyways and take care of you when you have nothing. Also made a comment about passing around the collection plate.
This again upset me since I always thought the point of that story was to NOT be the jerk who pissed away all his money, but to forgive some one if they did. How is this not pissing people off? He is obviously trying to get money from people who have less money then him! I wanted to scream that Jesus said it was harder to for a rich man to get into heaven then it is to get a camel through the eye of a needle! But he doesn’t come to my house and tell me how to do my job and I think the mob of his followers might not be as peaceful as Jesus was. It just blew my mind! He got up and bragged about how much he had, but we needed to give money to the church and buy his books and tapes. He actually made a point to talk about how wonderful his new book was and how we needed to read it!
Don’t get me wrong I’m not hating on the guy for wanting money. I would love to have ass loads of cash. I just can’t believe that man who is suppose to be teaching people about Jesus was just the opposite of what was wrote about Jesus. On top of that his message was also pretty much the opposite of the bibles. I don’t remember Jesus being a rich wasteful person. Unless you count giving what you have to the poor as wasteful. These people were still just eating it up.
Needless to say I was disappointed. I don’t know where I was going with this I guess it was just another rant.  

Helping share a brave woman's story.

I thought this was important enough to deserve it’s own post. If you haven’t heard by now that there was a woman in Libya yesterday named Eman al-Obeidy  who tried desperately to tell her story about being raped by 15 of Colonel Qaddafi’s men. She was quickly attacked covered and dragged away. They came back saying she was drunk and crazy (of course because they are ASSHOLES!). It is one of the bravest/saddest things I have ever seen and she tried so hard to get her story out I’m going to help her be heard however I can. “none of us are safe till we're all safe”

Here is a part part of the story from the NYtimes

“They say that we are all Libyans and we are one people,” said the woman, who gave her name as Eman al-Obeidy, barging in during breakfast at the hotel dining room. “But look at what the Qaddafi men did to me.” She displayed a broad bruise on her face, a large scar on her upper thigh, several narrow and deep scratch marks lower on her leg, and marks from binding around her hands and feet.
She said she had been raped by 15 men. “I was tied up, and they defecated and urinated on me,” she said. “They violated my honor.”

Here are some links to videos and stories. Please watch even though it's hard and share the world should know about this. 

She was released
Never mind the update it was all lies

While regime claims woman who told press of being raped by soldiers has been released, parents say she is held hostage at Qaddafi's Tripoli compound, was offered money to change her story

Now they are charger her.... this breaks my heart again

Friday, March 25, 2011

I heart grassroots activism

Yesterday I found a little gem called . It’s a wonderful idea to help the tsunami victims in Japan. Kids are thought to make cranes. They teach other children. Then they give a dollar for the crane. They learn to give and make cranes! Fantastic I wish I was this creative.
Don’t let this next paragraph take away anything from the greatness and wonderfulness of their project, but I was thinking how come their isn’t anything I can find like this to help fund our schools? If there is and I just don’t know about please leave a comment! The rally on march 12th was an excellent idea. It really did a lot of good I think to show Rick Perry that we are NOT going to be ignored. But as far as I know it didn’t raise any money for the cause.
I know there is a box tops program that I am also all for, but I think their should be something that we have, some kind of project, that we can cause a stir and give money directly to TX schools with out giving a part to a giant corporation or the government. Cause if Rick Perry gets half a chance he will take the money to pad his slush found in a heart beat. I’m getting off topic. Is there anything out there like this? Does anyone have any ideas? Please comment any info helps.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The Andrew story

My first pregnancy was full of unknowns. I didn’t know if I was having a boy or a girl. Were they going to be healthy? What were they going to be like? The big day finally came. I will spare you the graphic details and skip to when he entered the world. It was kind of a blur, but I remember very clearly that after we got the cord cut they quickly took him to a baby tray thing to clean him up. He didn’t cry right away. We made eye contact and he lifted himself up on to his little arms. Very impressive. I didn’t realize then how much I would come to treasure his eye contact. I was so happy I actually cried. He eventually starting crying and the next day we went home. After we were home for a few hours he started crying. For hours and hours he cried. I didn’t know if he had colic or if it was because of his circumcision (not a good idea). At the time it never crossed my mind that it might be because they shot him full of mercury, a virus, and other toxins. Why would I? I was a 21 year old first time mother. They were doctors and nurses with years of experience and schooling. For days he cried with an hour here and there of sleep. He didn’t seem to cry more when I changed his diapers. No fever. I had no idea and it was heart breaking.
He started getting older. He hit most of his milestones ahead of schedule. He was a little behind in his speech, but he was talking. I wanted to be a good mother. The doctors told me to get him vaccinated. The other children were getting them. I got him the shots. They told me that him getting a fever and laying around the house afterwards was normal. I believed them because again what did I know?  Thousand of kids got them everyday. He eventually stopped talking and regressed. He had a lost look in his eyes all the time. I was lost to. I didn’t know what was happening to my son. I didn’t know what to do for him. On top of being completely ignorant I was struggling with the sadness and guilt that comes along with coming to terms with the reality that your child has autism. It was becoming more obvious every day.
He had a special bond with my husband. It hurts my pride to admit that even though I was a stay at home mom that they seemed to be closer. It probably had something to do with my son being an exact replica of his father. They just clicked. When Andrew was 2 my husband passed away. Needless to say things got worse. I was in a world of hurt. I didn’t know what to do with myself much less how to help my son. Andrew regressed further. I hate putting it like this, but at one point it was like trying to raise a wild animal. I hoped that it was because he was mourning his father and he would get better. When he was 3 and things were not getting better I finally took him to the specialist. He got the MRI, the genetic testing, every test they could give. Didn’t tell me anything I did not know. He was autistic. They couldn’t tell me why. They did accomplish making me cry. Even though I knew he was autistic it hurts when a doctor tells you your 3 year old has the cognitive skills of a 13 month old. I enrolled him in classes with teacher and therapist. I worked with him at the house. I bunch of repeated words with the asl signs. It helped. I had to wait 6 years to hear him say I love you and it was worth every minute.
I think the worst part of it (other then the uncertainty of his future) was when he was sick. He got sick a lot. He would spike fevers. He would obviously be in pain and could not tell me where. He acted like giving him medicine was a cruel torture. He still does. For the most part every fever turned into a trip to the doctor. Most of those turned into trip to the hospital with antibiotic and fluid I.V.s. It was like he had no immune system. He got to where he would start crying if we went into some place that even looked like a doctors office. He had to get ear tubes twice because of ear infections. He had to have his tonsils and adenoids out. Post op infection that needed a trip to the hospital. Roto virus that ended with a trip to the hospital. He couldn’t tell me what he was feeling. I don’t know if he was understanding me telling him what was going on.
I would hear horror stories about parents having to send their children to live in facilities when they got bigger because they couldn’t take care of them anymore for some reason or another. I would hear in the news about how special needs children were targeted by bullies and abusers. I would hear statistics like 85% of couples raising autistic kids get divorced. How people were making millions selling false hope to desperate parents searching for help for their children. I would hear about the care for children financially crippling families. It was $1000 bucks just to cover the anesthesia when we had to get his cavities filled.
He is 7 now and in kindergarten for the 2nd time. He got a new teacher this year. A wonderful, smart man who has helped Andrew improve dramatically. He is talking. Not a lot by himself but he can pretty much repeat any word you ask him to which is phenomenal. He is happy! He is becoming more social. He has stopped throwing fits all the time. I can take him places with out having to leave dragging him kicking and screaming behind me. It’s amazing.
A few weeks ago I was told it was a very real possibility that they were going to cut the special ed in my ISD.  That was a crushing blow. I’m not one to wallow in self pity and defeat. So I started writing letters, email, I attended a march/ rally in Austin. I started a page to try to get other people informed and take action. I can’t do it alone. Please help. Not just for my kids but for everyone’s kids and the future of this state. Send letters to your representatives in Texas and Washington. Let them know that you think education for EVERY CHILD is important! Let them know you will remember when you are voting.

Monday, March 21, 2011

No pink Floyd we really do need education!

I Wish I could close my eyes and make this go away.  My son goes back to school tomorrow but I have no idea for how long. They are cutting education in Texas at an alarming rate (any cut to education is alarming you might as well say fuck progress). My son is in special education. They are talking about cutting it all together in my ISD. I’m not sure what’s really going to happen now. If they fire his wonderfully awesome teacher that he loves and has helped him improved dramatically I will probably home school (and cry). I went to the rally to save our schools on the 18th The video I made of it!. Afterwards Rick Perry did ok the use of the rainy day funds to fill the gap in the budget for one year. He is just screwing up this state more and more. We can’t tax the rich and corporation the same percentage as we tax workers and middle class. we will lose jobs! Really Governor? They are going to leave all the oil alone because of a tax increase fucking doubt it. Is unemployment soooo low with all the tax break they get now? Are they going to raise gas prices? News flash they are going to raise it any damn way to what ever they want because they can. They would sell people at 100 bucks a barrel if some one was buying. Rick Perry would probably  make it legal for the right price. Then give them a tax break. Anyways there is no reason to think that all the teachers that TX is going to lose are going to come back anytime soon. It is starting to become painfully obvious that I should have done this rant when I was more awake. My lack of sleep is hindering my attention span and my ability to make a coherent sentence. I’m just going to post a few interesting things and pick this up again soon. Colors make them easier to compare. Links to pages below pictures.

That one has it's own sources. Google them if you want.

Other interesting links
I'm going to be looking into how come Alaska can spend so much more money on education and still have such low graduation rates. If I had to guess Sarah Palin had something to do with it. Good night!

Update another great link

Sunday, March 20, 2011

You are important

You are important for lots of reason, but in this post I am going to go into how important it is to be a helpful part of you local economy. You do make a difference. If it’s for the better it is up to you. You can buy from local farms. This keeps your money in your community, and out of the pockets of corporations. It promotes healthier foods and keeps GMO foods off your plate.Why aren't GMO foods labeled
 It’s probably easier then you think to do. I just found out recently that it is a lot easier then I thought!
What I can’t grow myself I can make sure wasn’t picked by what is basically slave labor. Since it is grown and sold in the same community the farmer are far more likely to be concerned with quality control. If someone gets sick they know where to find you. That is a lot of pressure.
On top of that fruits and vegetables lose nutrients quickly after they are picked. The fresher the better.
When you can’t buy that local buy American! We aren’t perfect but you should still root for your home team.
There are a lot of these sites. You don’t have to use this one. I would go into all the wonderful reason to buy American but sooo many people have done this before me. So I picked out a good one for you short easy and to the point Also with the internet you can support neat homemade stuff from across the country. Support American families not just American corporations.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Blaming the victim

I just read a post on face book from a local news channel about a 13 year old girl from Arizona abducted by a 19 year old she was talking to online. They found her safe in TX. I went to the comments expecting to find things like what kind of terrible person would kidnap a little girl? What was there was people saying how stupid the kid was and how the parents were to blame and should be locked up. What the hell? Yes you are suppose to keep track of what kids are doing online. Maybe they weren’t the world’s best parents (we don‘t know), but you can not hover over a 13 year old all the time. Even if they were terrible neglectful parents another adult coming an abducting their child is not their fault! It would be a completely different issue. He was the problem. He was trolling the internet looking for little girls. He is the sick o who took her. Why would that be the last thing people think when they read about this?
This isn’t the first article this month that got me pissed with all the blame the victim comments. The New York times published and article about the 11 year old ganged raped here in TX. It went on and on about the comments made by the local community. Comments suggesting it was her fault for “dressing like a hooker” “hanging out with older boys” It had all the classics “where were her parents”  “wearing makeup” . Even threw in some interesting new hits like “these boys are going to have to live with this the rest of their lives”. Makes me want to vomit. No one cared about where the hell were the rapist parents were while these ADULTS were RAPING a CHILD!?!
I was thinking that maybe this was a local problem. Texas in not always the most evolved state when it comes to women’s issues. Then I remembered an article I read from England about a repeatedly convicted sex offender (apparently they just lets those assholes out all the time there to) raping two young brothers in a McDonalds bathroom. More of those comments were about how that man should die a terrible terrible death, but they were still talking shit about the father who thought it would be ok for two kids to use the bathroom while he was 10 ft away. I couldn’t imagine the world of hurt that man was in. I just can’t wrap my head around how those people could blame him for that, and now I kind of wonder if the 7 year old would have been a girl wearing make up if they would have said she had it coming.
I remember standing in line to use the restroom at a state park when I was younger (by myself even though I had wonderful parents) and a jeep full of girls in bikinis driving by. The woman next to me said “how disgusting when those girls get raped it’ll be their own fault” . Even as a kid I was like what the hell is wrong with that woman?
If we are going to place blame at least direct it in the right place! If some one rapes some one they are to blame. Maybe they had shitty parents I don’t know but I do know that they are the problem when they rape someone. Not the victim. Not the victim’s parents. Unless there is some crazy other circumstances like the parents sold them into slavery or the people watching them were in a drug induced coma, but even then they should be in trouble for that. The rape is still the rapist fault! I almost forgot where I was going with this.
Teach your children to respect, love, and take care of each other. We are never going to find a solution to a problem if you don’t acknowledge what is causing the problem. It can’t be healthy for kids to hear if a girl gets raped it’s the girl’s fault. If a kid gets raped it’s the parent’s fault.
I think I have broke the record for using the word rape the most times in a blog post.

who stole my cookie

A corporation, a tea bagger, and the head of a union were sitting at a table with 12 cookies in the middle. The corporation takes 11 cookies and turns to the teabagger and says you better watch that union guy he wants part of your cookie!
Here is a little cartoon I made a while ago that seems appropriate!
My cookie movie
a chicken wing gets hot when you turn it on 

Thursday, March 17, 2011

The early morning rant

Adopt a shelter dog. Most shelters have a kill rate of like 97%. A lot of the time they put dogs down the same day they come in because they just don’t have the space or the money. Most of them are great dogs that just need some love and a home. They would do the same for you if they could. When the economy is suffering a lot of the time our four legged friends are the first ones who get dumped to helped families keep a float. I don’t blame them when your having a hard time taking care of your kids rationally keeping a dog is not a good idea. But seems like a good time to step up and give some sweet animal a home.
BSL is dumb. If you don’t know what this is a lot of places are trying to out law specific breeds. Breed Specific Legislation. Because pit bulls are scary…. BOO! Even though any one you know in your family is statistically more likely to kill your kid then a pit bull. Even though a cow is more likely to kill you. Even though they can now prove that this cost a lot of money and doesn’t work, and it is based on bias and not fact people still seem to want to try this. Keep an eye out for it there usually isn’t a bunch of news about it. They are trying to pass a law in TX called Justin’s law that could make it a felony to own a pit. If you're on facebook check out
         And here is a classic rant. Get your pets spayed or neutered! We are all full here. we have enough puppies thanks. also of course no puppy mills !
Also FUCK peta! If your going to donate to a rescue group there are a lot of much much better options!.
Here is a good to read blog with lots of back up on their views. They are against pits and dogs in general.
It’s going to be a very busy day for me doing momma stuff. My next rant might be about special needs children and dentist visits I should have a lot of fresh material for it!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Who I am and how I got here.

 I care deeply about a lot of things. Since there is not a lot of people around me with the views and values I have I hit the internet. I started talking to other people like me and I liked it. So I decided to start this blog. This way when I want to go on a rant about something I wont have to do it in facebook comments. I still will but I wont have to. I have no experience with blogs so be patient with me while I figure it out. Any type of advice and suggestions would be appreciated. 
I'm a mother of 3. I live in TX. I'm kind of a dirty hippie. Very much a democrat. I'm a pantheist who studies stoicism (I try it's hard). I'm pro-choice.  I'm married to a wonderful coon ass man. I also swear. I think it is very important if we want things to change for the better to educate, inform, and ACT!.